relationships

i was once again sitting in the corner of my world and i thought of all the relationships that i have lost and the ones i have made and what impact they had in my life. About year ago i lost my father he was my everything my best friend, my father, my pillar of sthrenght and i had always felt the empty space in my heart were he should have been and just a few months ago my sister gave birth to twins beautiful boys and just then i thought to myself is this gods way of filling that empty space because they resemble my dad and they remind me so much of him. I now know that those children were brought into this world for something they have brought my family together. I have lost friends in life we all went separate ways but i have also kept alot of friends in the process but when looking at all those friends that i have lost i wonder if i had not cut them loose would i have turned out like them because most of the have dropped out of school and are drinking and smoking while some of them are teenage mothers. In my life i only keep friends that are positive and strive for a better future. I have one friend she is a teenage mother to 2 children but what i like about her is that even though she made those mistakes in her life she didnt give up she is still going strong and wants a better future for her children. Everytime am about to talk about this girl i just laugh she is a friend i met in primary i was i new in the school and we lived in the same community and traveled in the same bus, my mother, her mother and other people always asked me how do you and her get  along ebcause we were so different she was out there loved the party life and boys were else i was more indoors but we got along so much you know she had her friends but i was that friend that she could come to with problems and tell me how she felt and what was going on in her life. Her mother loved the fact that i was friends with her beacouse in her mind i think she thought i could change her and make her become like me but we enjoyed our differences and they complimented our relationship she is still the same old and am also still the same but now since i have growned i wish i had been able to change her because now she has dropped out of school and is staying with a boyfriend i miss her though but she is hard to keep intouch with she changes her numbers all the time. In my journey i have met alot of wonderful people and i have kept alot of great friends in the process i have now what i call best friends they have been with me through the hardest times of my life and i can say i am truly blessed to have them