forgive and forget

This morning i was just thinking is the such thing as "forgive and forget". I remember thats what Nelson Mandela said at the end of apartheid , its easy for me to do that because i did not experiance it how about those people who were  there the ones that lost their lives in the hands of the white men, the ones who spent most their lives in jail fighting for their freedom, the ones who lost family members how do they forget those memories those years of their lives wasted the missing presence of their loved ones. The is only one answer for me to that they cannot forget but they can forgive because those are not memories one can easily forget. I am not aginst the white man i believe that South Africa is moving forward and the are less and less white people who still think that way but now i fear that the is reverse apartheid were black people are teaching their children to hate the white men where our leaders are promoting it with the likes of people like Malema in parliament and i just wonder what that will do for our country. I personaly believe that most of the people that put our people through that pain most of them have died and died with their since and the only person we should let punish them is God.

women cries

Last weekend i was having a talk with one of my close cousins and i was talking to her about her relationship with her boyfrieind, i just wanted to get to understand why a women would stay in a relationship for years while she is being physically and mentally abused and she told me its becouse of love and that she believes that her partner was doing that because he loved her and he was looking out for her. She has been in this kind of relationship for almost five years now. I got so upset that the are women who think they deserve what these man do to them and mostly blame themselves for it. What kind of love is that that makes you cry and makes you loose your self esteem, i dont understand how a person who claims to love you can say such horrible things to you. how do we change the mindset of those women how do we get them out of those relationships because some of them have never been in relationships were they are not beaten and sweared at. I have had this experiance with my causin who comes crying to me and then when the pain from all those beatings has healed she goes back to him and claim that he says it was a mistake he didnt mean it he is so sorry, i mean how many times does he have to beat her until it stops being a mistake until he is not sorry anymore. HOW DO WE HELP THOSE WOMEN

http://www.news24.com/SouthAfrica/Politics/I-would-die-defending-whites-Malema-20120324

death of a loved one

My father passed away in 2010 and its been almost two years now but i still have difficulty letting him go. Just two weeks ago a friend of lost her bf and then just three days ago  my ex classsmate died in a car accident. Death is something that happens everyday but we still find difficulty to deal with. Loosing someone you love is not  easy and if you are a christian you might even doubt your faith in god becouse like myself i had the question if god loves me so and i obey him why does he put me in so much pain why does he take away tthe people that mean alot to us and then you have the question why me. If its not you who deserve to feel the pain nobody does but its part of life and the is nothing we can do about. God will take away someone and will bring you something greater and am still waiting for mine. To those who have lost people they love let them go but never let go of the memories you had with them becouse those are thing you will remember them by.

let down

I was watchimg the news this morning and one of the townships in langa in the western cape had burnt down last night. That township is one of the townships that burn every single year in cape town and still those people are still living in shacks which make me wonder what are we really voting for. It has been 18 years since the new govenrment has been in power and yes they have made changes but are those enough i dnt think so if the are still people withouth basic housing, water supply, electricity and just this morning the where children matching for better educattion and better schools. When we get people in government that are still building houses worth millions and yet most of the people in our country are still living in poverty. the is a huge difference in our country between the rich and the poor and everyday it is expanding.

my strugles with obesity

all my life i have had problems with my weight and it was not nice growing up being labelled as the fat girl when people talk about me. Today i sow a girl she is in high school she reminded me of myself she looked so miserable and right there i could feel her pain. I have not lost weight and honestly i have given up on loosing weight and i dont know whether it is because of the fear i have of what i would look like thin would i look better or worse. I wish that i had spent my childhood life bettter than i did but i didnt because all the children that were my age looked so small and i looked so old cause i was fat and tall. I am now 20 years old and yes i still have those insecurities but now that i am grown i have learned a lot about me as person and that what i look like on the outside doesnt define me. We live in a world where your beauty as a human being is defined by the clothes u wear the struture of your body and i know that people my size are labelled ugly. I feel for the children that are still growing up and are experiencing these weight issues becouse they have no one to tell them you look beautiful just the way you are." I am not changing who i am for anyone and if you cant accept me just the way i am then walk away because am a beautiful person." That is a positive thinking we should teach the young ones and what defines beauty.

hey there

listening to adels "turning tables" what a greate song it is exactly how am feeling right now. its almost vilentines day people show some love.